I lesson down looking into his eyes when communicate with him or just be with him,as I hate noticed he is not looking into me but somewherelse.
I hate him being rude to me so not care.
Its not bad,I can dont find him for couple of day.I can don't miss him for couple of days.
It's improvement!
It's good to have something for me to acheive and enjoy myself...thanks for everything of that helping me....my hobbies,sing,guitar,my disire of what to expand,hobbies of like massage,have a sweet shower( I love the mandara spa soap,its make me feel its so natural,and Its so clean on my skin after using it!),I love my lovely room which provide me shelter...love everything distract me from him.
He is bad.I don't know when I will just leave him like that,just like that.
I hope to be happy,hope to live in bliss.
Sunday, January 23, 2011
Social me improved sign
After singing last night,theres an event planner ask me if I interest to sing with them if they have job.I am proud on myself during that conversation,I am able to tell cleary what am I doing and I willing to do and ways we can work together,and able to speak and ask to point.
After that,thers another lady ask me for her own party.I am able to tell her cleary what we always do and give her some idea what she need to concern and what roughly it cost with certain kind of package.some sound system. At last only I found out she herself in IOI Bouvelard who can help recommend me to get their permanent contract singing.And I am able to have such a long conversation with her,that with rich information to her,that I believe I have been a proffesional in this industry in this carreer which I always think where it's essentially important for myself,image and future oppurtunity.(professional,and professional image),which definately helpful for my professional image and furute oppurunity.
Also the first time,I have been brave to go right away to that restraunt and meet person incharge who are looking for band.Considerably alright conversation.Good Try!
I can feeling Im improving,In social me,In may be carreer,at least at something I interest.Just try.
Good Job Eve!
One day you will learn neccessary knowledge in industry you are interest and love to do and become a proffessional that services you provide is need by others with appreciation.Then your wonderful carreer life cum life(interest,hobbies,expand talents)coming towards you and You are on raod to success!
After that,thers another lady ask me for her own party.I am able to tell her cleary what we always do and give her some idea what she need to concern and what roughly it cost with certain kind of package.some sound system. At last only I found out she herself in IOI Bouvelard who can help recommend me to get their permanent contract singing.And I am able to have such a long conversation with her,that with rich information to her,that I believe I have been a proffesional in this industry in this carreer which I always think where it's essentially important for myself,image and future oppurtunity.(professional,and professional image),which definately helpful for my professional image and furute oppurunity.
Also the first time,I have been brave to go right away to that restraunt and meet person incharge who are looking for band.Considerably alright conversation.Good Try!
I can feeling Im improving,In social me,In may be carreer,at least at something I interest.Just try.
Good Job Eve!
One day you will learn neccessary knowledge in industry you are interest and love to do and become a proffessional that services you provide is need by others with appreciation.Then your wonderful carreer life cum life(interest,hobbies,expand talents)coming towards you and You are on raod to success!
everything happen for me,good and bad,is actually good.
bad is refer to not getting result I want,but it doesn't really mean bad,instead,Its good.
After previous half year "bad experience",I have so much improve on every aspect of my life.Significantly on social,may be It's not an ideal outcome yet,at least,there's a good sign at begin.On my attitude,conversation ingredient,language,on my attitude towards others,on conception of mine to others.At least its give me an idea where to move towards,roughly.---I cant stay in my world forever,I have to find a balance between the true me,and the social me.social me there's sometime some fake due to manners and reserve for future oppurtunity,but there's still plenty of room for me for showing my real coulour and shine on it.
I will have a success social life that enrich my life and my carreer,yet I will not lost inside,instead ,I have a rich spiritual status.
bad is refer to not getting result I want,but it doesn't really mean bad,instead,Its good.
After previous half year "bad experience",I have so much improve on every aspect of my life.Significantly on social,may be It's not an ideal outcome yet,at least,there's a good sign at begin.On my attitude,conversation ingredient,language,on my attitude towards others,on conception of mine to others.At least its give me an idea where to move towards,roughly.---I cant stay in my world forever,I have to find a balance between the true me,and the social me.social me there's sometime some fake due to manners and reserve for future oppurtunity,but there's still plenty of room for me for showing my real coulour and shine on it.
I will have a success social life that enrich my life and my carreer,yet I will not lost inside,instead ,I have a rich spiritual status.
久违
It had been long time to me.Haven't have this kind of smooth writing experience since high school.
I love expressing myself,It make me feel better.It help me clarify myself,my situation.At least Its where I release everything inside me.
I love it.Thanks to everything help me having all this...Blog,internet...a lovely background music,lovely laptop,surronding for me to slow down,think and do this.love,thanks.
I am happy，blissful inside me,after few blog,my mood have 180' changed.感恩，感谢
out,explore and get inspired!
It is always smart choice to go out.without any reason,just out,and explore.you will always been inspired.
Out,mean out of my very own world,it can be expose to reading material,pictures,anything from outside.It always will like a reminder of my real me,it inspire me,and remind me what I want to do inside me....
When I see pretty girl with perfect body figure and adorable image,I think to myself ,I can,If I choose to
When I see great performance,I think to myself,I can,If I choose to...
When I see someone do something,travel, photographed life,I think to myself,I can,If I choose to
Just have to go out of world ,and get inspired.You've got lot things to do! Excited one!
There's begin of expanding,there's begin of life.
I AM ON THE RIGHT TRACK
Regardless of few frustration or impatience.
I AM ON THE RIGHT TRACK!
start blogging is right,clarify myself.
start improve guitar and singing and on stage is right,expand my talent,and unexpected prepare for future oppurtunity.
working in this fucking place with fucking people is right,so it give me and comparison of what I real like,and it give me some 'benefit' like time and place to do my own thing that is more meaningful to me,and money for some expences and a shelter for these passing time..I should always thank this fucking place.
I will keep finding my life path to acheive real LIFE!
I will keep doing thing priritize happiness and enjoy!Do thing for free Do thing for passion DONT do thing for cheap.
I AM ON THE RIGHT TRACK!
start blogging is right,clarify myself.
start improve guitar and singing and on stage is right,expand my talent,and unexpected prepare for future oppurtunity.
working in this fucking place with fucking people is right,so it give me and comparison of what I real like,and it give me some 'benefit' like time and place to do my own thing that is more meaningful to me,and money for some expences and a shelter for these passing time..I should always thank this fucking place.
I will keep finding my life path to acheive real LIFE!
I will keep doing thing priritize happiness and enjoy!Do thing for free Do thing for passion DONT do thing for cheap.
I am getting more and more impatience in this job.I am getting more and more cant stand of this two 'boss'!I am getting xxx to communicate with them in that way,and to have this kind of work life,have to do lot of meaningless detail thing,time,allowence,tiny job.and in a room with brainless colleague.
I am so want to have an exciting carreer life.
I am so want my dream life,with thing i dream to have....
my own lovely own home,own space
with own functional and extraordinary design
lovely white suzuki swift,and excellent driving experience,
some branded lovely bags with white IPhone 4 and IPad,using them for my love carreer and hobbies,
wear things I like,
free on time,location,things to do and ways to do....contributive....exciting job,exciting people,exciting life!!
I can massage whenever wherever I want,travel and experience wherever and whenever I want...
I learn hobbies and expand my talent like music,singing,insturment,dancing,talking,language,photography,arts..
I learn and improve of myself in every aspect of my life.I look good ,feel good,do good,having great life!!!
I am so want to have an exciting carreer life.
I am so want my dream life,with thing i dream to have....
my own lovely own home,own space
with own functional and extraordinary design
lovely white suzuki swift,and excellent driving experience,
some branded lovely bags with white IPhone 4 and IPad,using them for my love carreer and hobbies,
wear things I like,
free on time,location,things to do and ways to do....contributive....exciting job,exciting people,exciting life!!
I can massage whenever wherever I want,travel and experience wherever and whenever I want...
I learn hobbies and expand my talent like music,singing,insturment,dancing,talking,language,photography,arts..
I learn and improve of myself in every aspect of my life.I look good ,feel good,do good,having great life!!!
inside me theres anger.
because of her,yesterday and today.
and little bit of myself.
because of ,she borrow money from me.after minutes of 'caring conversation'.I am so down because I suspect of the conversation before is a real care or just open conversation to borrow money from me?And I am down because I dont like to see the people I care have this kind of life,get used to borrow money always.I hope they can have comfort life,at least managable finacial status!
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Because of myself,I dont know whatt to do is right.If I don't borrow its like being selfish to her,If borrow her,is like supporting her bad habit.And I don't know what to do can really help her and I feel good myself at the same time.Finally,I borrow her,but I doesn't feel good until this moment as I realize I'm not doing thing in a getting better result way.
Today,grandma call me ask me If I go back tonight,ask me to bring them out for dinner as her family went for wedding dinner.
I am so upset,She borrow money from me of reason to buy vege,and she didnt! Secondly,she just do her thing ,just like that,and expect me as spare tyre,to bring them out??!!! I love bringing them out to eat...But not in this way!!! They just take it from granted!! I am so upset!!
Dont bring them,Its like Im so Careless,and I hate leave them alone,and helpless!I hate it!
Bring them,I dont like to so easily meet their expetation till they are more and more take it from granted!
Next time I wont borrow her money.
I dont want to support her bad habit by doing this.
Next time I wont agree on what they expect me to do,unless earlier inform and by requesting.Its not I HAVE TO be spare tyre! I will do it MY WAY where my love and care is not waste in being taken for granted!!
I hope them know that I love them even though Im not doing thing they want me to do.
I hope they can take care of themself and don't rely on others and think people should help.
I hope she can manage her life and finacial well that will good for her and her parents.
I hope everyone happy.
I hope I can do something meaningful instead of swallow angerness.
because of her,yesterday and today.
and little bit of myself.
because of ,she borrow money from me.after minutes of 'caring conversation'.I am so down because I suspect of the conversation before is a real care or just open conversation to borrow money from me?And I am down because I dont like to see the people I care have this kind of life,get used to borrow money always.I hope they can have comfort life,at least managable finacial status!
'
Because of myself,I dont know whatt to do is right.If I don't borrow its like being selfish to her,If borrow her,is like supporting her bad habit.And I don't know what to do can really help her and I feel good myself at the same time.Finally,I borrow her,but I doesn't feel good until this moment as I realize I'm not doing thing in a getting better result way.
Today,grandma call me ask me If I go back tonight,ask me to bring them out for dinner as her family went for wedding dinner.
I am so upset,She borrow money from me of reason to buy vege,and she didnt! Secondly,she just do her thing ,just like that,and expect me as spare tyre,to bring them out??!!! I love bringing them out to eat...But not in this way!!! They just take it from granted!! I am so upset!!
Dont bring them,Its like Im so Careless,and I hate leave them alone,and helpless!I hate it!
Bring them,I dont like to so easily meet their expetation till they are more and more take it from granted!
Next time I wont borrow her money.
I dont want to support her bad habit by doing this.
Next time I wont agree on what they expect me to do,unless earlier inform and by requesting.Its not I HAVE TO be spare tyre! I will do it MY WAY where my love and care is not waste in being taken for granted!!
I hope them know that I love them even though Im not doing thing they want me to do.
I hope they can take care of themself and don't rely on others and think people should help.
I hope she can manage her life and finacial well that will good for her and her parents.
I hope everyone happy.
I hope I can do something meaningful instead of swallow angerness.
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